This last week I felt lost. It wasn’t a normal week for me. I didn’t stick to my normal agenda and I honestly felt like things were slowly falling out of place. You see, I prioritize my life. I know. It seems ridiculous. Honestly though, it keeps me sane. I was quick to learn that when I felt stressed or unhappy it was because, my priorities were all out of line.
Lately, I have been missing my alone time with God. It is my number one priority to keep connection and build my relationship with Him. Getting to know Him better. I lost sight of my number one priority. I haven’t been doing my devotion, praying, worshiping, or spent any time with Him. This might sound crazy.. my whole world felt like it started to crumble. My whole world wasn’t crumbling and it wasn’t falling out of line because I wasn’t connecting with Christ. But, my perspective on my life was. It was slowly beginning to change. Even within a short week.
You know, I start to lose sight of what is significant. What really matters. Whether something is a big deal or a small mishap. I begin to feel discontent. I get angry easier. I miss out on all of the joy in life. I was starting to focus on all the negative around me and stopped focusing on all the positive. I started caring about things that are not usually important to me. I felt alone. I felt empty. I even felt sad. Yeah, real life. Even in a short amount of time.
This morning during worship I felt that needed presence. I need Him. I can’t rely on myself to live this life happy. I can’t just take over and think I can make myself happy all on my own. Really? I have tried that for 27 years. It wasn’t working. It didn’t work before and it’s definitely not going to be any different now. This week was almost a reality check for me. Maybe a wake up call.
He is the essential part of my life. When Christ comes first and is the foundation of my my life I feel peace, happiness, and contentment.
I need Him everyday.